

Ok, it sounds like you haven’t had the opportunity to process your childhood trauma, and yes, based on what you wrote it is a trauma.
I recommend going to therapy to help you process and sort out your thoughts.
You were robbed, robbed of your childhood, sadly, you can’t change that, but you can change it so that you don’t get robbed off of your adulthood as well.
Then, what is the point of it?