Don’t suggest hobbies or human contact. It’s been suggested and it doesn’t work.

I have a job I don’t particularly hate nor like, some coworkers I get along with others are just morons, I go to work, then buy groceries, go home, eat, watch tv, go to bed. Rinse and repeat.

On my free days I do sport and watch pirated netflix. I don’t spend much money on clothing or media and save most of my paycheck. What for? I have no idea. I don’t eat out because I like cooking my own food and restaurants are expensive and the food is bland.

Everything is so expensive nowadays btw…

Most people bore me. I’m like an atheist monk.

I don’t want to kill myself or anybody fwiw. It’s like I don’t give a crap about anything or anyone and don’t see what’s the point of living.

I don’t want to travel because it costs money.

As soon as my cognitive abilities start to fail I’m going to be very easy prey for any online scammer.

  • deranger@sh.itjust.works
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    6 days ago

    Someone once said to me that from a Buddhist perspective they’re not helpful because they provide a one time view rather than a continual shift in mindset.

    That’s true, but you can take that experience and apply it to sober life. You don’t need to take acid all the time to appreciate psychedelia, but a few trips help broaden the horizon so to speak. My memories of psychedelic experiences sometimes return to me quite vividly when floating in a float tank.

    • oceanAEnglish
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      6 days ago

      Thanks for sharing! That’s cool. I wonder why specifically in the tank?

      Maybe I should reword it that similar experiences in meditation can be had naturally, whenever and for as long as one wishes.

      That said, I haven’t experienced either. Float tank was fun though.

      • deranger@sh.itjust.works
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        6 days ago

        I think probably because there’s no sensory input and I’m just there floating in the darkness with only my breathing and heartbeat. It’s not like the whole time I’m in the tank I’m tripping, but I have had some psychedelic adjacent experiences. Not so much the visual and auditory hallucinations, but rather the psychedelic thoughts. Pondering the nature of my existence, fleeting moments of feeling cosmic and eternal, that sorta thing.

        I wouldn’t recommend psychedelics to everyone but I’m glad I’ve dabbled. Those in a stable mental state would probably have a worthwhile experience eating some shrooms and sitting down in the woods.