My whole life i’ve been an absolute atheist, with some pagan beliefs along the way for a bit as well.

My grandma is a jehovah’s witness and overall i’ve found a lot of issues with christianity as a whole.

I never thought id ever even consider asking this, but how can i start educating myself on christianity? it feels like out of no where i started having dreams about god, having the desire to pray, and just a sudden interest about it in general.

i just feel kind of stuck, the idea of heaven and hell troubles me, the idea of sin, etc. is it possible to view these things as strictly symbolical?

I am so so uneducated on christianity and the bible, I don’t even know how to start reading the bible or where to get the “right” one.

sorry if any of this sounds totally ignorant! i’ve been trying to do research on my own, but I’d love to hear some of your thoughts on this.

Thank you!