Yeah, I’ve had a lot of medical problems in my life that make me more dependent upon others than most so I dunno if that means I felt it more keenly because of that or if that’s just how it goes for everyone.

I will say, re:fear, that once you get past the initial wave of grief it’s not really a bad thing, it’s just remembering them and being sad that they’re not there, and like anything it lessens with time. I wouldn’t say I look forward to it or anything like that, but while for the first little bit it kind of wiped me out, now it’s kind of like nostalgia. Instead of deeply feeling that freshly-severed connection it’s more like fond remembrance now.