The comment I replied to said “medicine” and KCN is Potassium Cyanide, a deadly poison. Basically my comment is a euphemism for the fact that I wanna kill myself.
I have a bridge near me, its like 130 feet ish above the water. I’m not sure if its tall enough.
There’s also the land area right before the bridge goes over the water. If I jump off from the part above land, its 130 feet into land.
I heard that your brain doesn’t even have time to process it.
That being said, I’m still kinda hanging on to see more TV shows and Movies.
The world is collapsing, and I kinda wanna see how this story ends. WW3? 👀
But I guess its mostly just the survival insticts in the dna that kinda made it difficult for me to make an attempt. The fear of death.
Its so ironic, 2 forces of you brain acting against each other. The conscious part that wants the suffering to end, and the subconscious desire to continue existing.
Welp, I guess I’m stuck here.
No quitting allowed, my subconsious brsin decrees… 🤷♂️
If you can’t bring yourself to do it, be it because you think people will suffer and be sad when you’re gone or that the world will be a worse one without you then you really shouldn’t do it. You most likely don’t actually want to in that case. There are exceptions, like terminally ill people who just can’t anymore, but if you have doubts about suicide, then you should see someone about it.
Also, you will very likely survive ~35 meters. General rule of thumb is 50 meters for hard surfaces (concrete, compacted dirt, rocks) and 100 m for water. Please don’t jump from there. You will cripple yourself and hate yourself for that attempt forever.
(There’s most likely a safety net too, so you’ll break a bunch of bones if you’re unlucky)
Sadly also not a good idea. If you don’t get killed (which is quite likely) you’ll have pretty much the same issues as before. Doesn’t kill you, can very much cripple you, but this time you will get a life sentence, maybe even with suicide watch.
Its almost like the entities that designed this universe delibriately make it harder for you to quit. What a evil joke. You get “plot armor” just so the audience gets to watch you suffer.
Welp, I hope y’all like this. A shitty ass truman-show with a character that is depressed af and has various conspiracy theories about the fabric of reality itself, existential crisis, and a fascist takeover in the country, as being a immigrant and racial minority, having zero power to change anything. And theres the possibility that this might not even be reality, truman show, simulated universe, or even just a brain floating in empty space hallucinating all this.
Real lol. I’ve been there many times too. Currently I’m at the stage of nothing matters because no one actually exists because we’re all just brains reacting based on input.
I hope you can get out of that country tho :)
There are medicines for that… 😳
I heard that KCN works great, I haven’t tried it yet. 🫠
(Warning: This is not medical advice. Do not try this at home.)
What’s kcn
Oh its just dark humor.
The comment I replied to said “medicine” and KCN is Potassium Cyanide, a deadly poison. Basically my comment is a euphemism for the fact that I wanna kill myself.
Don’t. KCN is incredibly painful. There are better ways.
I have a bridge near me, its like 130 feet ish above the water. I’m not sure if its tall enough.
There’s also the land area right before the bridge goes over the water. If I jump off from the part above land, its 130 feet into land.
I heard that your brain doesn’t even have time to process it.
That being said, I’m still kinda hanging on to see more TV shows and Movies.
The world is collapsing, and I kinda wanna see how this story ends. WW3? 👀
But I guess its mostly just the survival insticts in the dna that kinda made it difficult for me to make an attempt. The fear of death.
Its so ironic, 2 forces of you brain acting against each other. The conscious part that wants the suffering to end, and the subconscious desire to continue existing.
Welp, I guess I’m stuck here.
No quitting allowed, my subconsious brsin decrees… 🤷♂️
If you can’t bring yourself to do it, be it because you think people will suffer and be sad when you’re gone or that the world will be a worse one without you then you really shouldn’t do it. You most likely don’t actually want to in that case. There are exceptions, like terminally ill people who just can’t anymore, but if you have doubts about suicide, then you should see someone about it. Also, you will very likely survive ~35 meters. General rule of thumb is 50 meters for hard surfaces (concrete, compacted dirt, rocks) and 100 m for water. Please don’t jump from there. You will cripple yourself and hate yourself for that attempt forever. (There’s most likely a safety net too, so you’ll break a bunch of bones if you’re unlucky)
Well Good thing I’m in America. Suicide by cop is also quite popular.
Might just decide to take a few of these fascist pigs out while I’m at it.
Edit: I know you’re trying to help, I’m just venting.
Sadly also not a good idea. If you don’t get killed (which is quite likely) you’ll have pretty much the same issues as before. Doesn’t kill you, can very much cripple you, but this time you will get a life sentence, maybe even with suicide watch.
Its almost like the entities that designed this universe delibriately make it harder for you to quit. What a evil joke. You get “plot armor” just so the audience gets to watch you suffer.
Welp, I hope y’all like this. A shitty ass truman-show with a character that is depressed af and has various conspiracy theories about the fabric of reality itself, existential crisis, and a fascist takeover in the country, as being a immigrant and racial minority, having zero power to change anything. And theres the possibility that this might not even be reality, truman show, simulated universe, or even just a brain floating in empty space hallucinating all this.
(Just ranting, feel free to ignore)
Real lol. I’ve been there many times too. Currently I’m at the stage of nothing matters because no one actually exists because we’re all just brains reacting based on input. I hope you can get out of that country tho :)