Agreed. A friend of mine is a veteran, and did something that he regrets every day of his life. Guilt’s been eating the guy. He told some people, and they cut off contact with him. Which he understands and agrees with. He told me too, and yet I can’t blame him for doing something objectively wrong.

So they are engineers!

Yup. I agree. Men’s pants more often accomodate my wide ass better than women’s clothing. I don’t know how. It shouldn’t be possible. Even the swimming trunks fit better… I found out ball hammocks are a thing. Not out of curiosity, but out of desperation! And sometimes, I find pants that fit my ass, but the legs are too short!

Another thing is that women’s clothing is meant to be form shaping. So if you are less curvy, the clothes got you covered. If you are too curvy, the clothes will crawl and migrate down the hills.

It’s hard to find practical clothing. Such as a swimming top that will stay the fuck on if you jump off a cliff. Or a bottim that has space for more than 1 asscheek. Let alone to avoid the camel toe.

Not to mention flimsy fabric with shitty patterns added. Found a comfy nice shoe? Well here is 2cm^2 of snakeskin pattern for no reason. How about a nice shirt? Got some stupid white woman quote on it though. Or an animal with massive eyes to make your boobs look bigger… ffs. Or the bad design? Nice hoodie? Well it’s short enough to show the belly button. Pockets? Some are fake. This nice looking top has 3 straps and you need to fold it inwards to make it stay in shape! Oh found a nice, 100% thick wool jacket? Oh it’s men sized. Arms are too long and a bit to tight around the bottom. Well let’s see- oh the women’s section doesn’t even have the option. Only a thin fleece hoodie in bright pastell colours.

God I swear to you, I hate women’s clothing so fucking much.

“Maybe I should just go swimming at a nude beach… that way I won’t have to search or worry anymore.”

The same goes for everything that lives then. There is no such thing as a mammal, they are just a form of prototheria! A lot of them just evolved into what we consider marsupials or eutheria. But a koala is just as much a mammal as a lemur!

Now this is a much smaller branch ofc, but you could slap it onto anything more vague. Reptiles, fish, crabs… and worse… fungi. Not to mention the archea.

How do they taste?

Shoutout to ADHDcentral. They tried to make the process as clear and accessible as possible. With automated reminders.

Nice. Same here. AuDHD at 29. Got a chance to try out methylfenidate. Trying 27mg slow release now. The lower dose of 18mg did nothing, but fucked me up after a week of trying out.

So far so good. Gonna warn you though, it still takes work, but it’s easier to “just do stuff.” It’s as if I have a gas pedal now, instead of a button to move the car. As if I can choose to work at a lower rpm. Running on idle is possible now, and being idle (such as waiting 15min for the train) doesn’t bother me. As if I can choose what to allocate working memory to. Allowing me to manage my dyslexia and high associative thinking better.

I also notice satiety and thirst. Something I didn’t feel before.

I can quit stop doing “fun” stuff and switch to doing “less fun” stuff. Going from playing a video game, to studying! It never worked this way. I was only ever able to start study in the morning. Once I caved into gaming, it was game over.

Reading is hard, but I am managing to get myself to start reading. I seem to be able to do stuff even when I don’t “feel” like doing it. Like laundry! Still hard, but not impossible.

Does nothing for my forgerfulness though, and the mental hyperactivity isn’t zen. So the dose may be still too low for me. I was only able to experience “the zen” with 10mg fast working on the testing day. But the rebound caused me to experience something akin to a stroke and pass out for 5min and wake up in confusion.

It’s an alien experience.

Don’t know. It was a droplet. My guess is that the centrifugal forces spread it out so much, that it was no longer visible. I could not find where. So I simply told the instructor and left it at that.

I remember the first time I worked with human blood. In hematology class, we learned how to clean up blood. As we were loading up our capilairi tubes into the centrifuge, I noticed a drop of blood had been spilled.

Impressive, I thought. Good thing there’s enough time to clean that up, I thought. I go and grab the sds, alcohol and paper tower from the table closeby. I turn around to see people leaving.

Already spinning.

I learned that day, to never trust anything. Not the equipment, not myself, and especially not other students…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rqruWpQcKLg&t=21

Yup. The bible belt in the netherlands was a great contributor to the study of epidemics. Measles outbreaks are very consistent. Every 10 years an outbreak occurs there.

Yup… it’s all about picking it up. Preferably before the moment you start to lose it. Good news. Even if you lose it, you can pick it back up!

The meditation that I liked were the ones that practiced mindfully shifting your attention.

The first one was using a specific type of mandala made of harsh contrasting colours and projecting the image on your mental vision. Interestingly, its clarity would fade if you focussed too hard, or too little. Practicing the ‘sweet spot.’

Another was generating thoughts. Letting your mind make stuff. The point was to become aware of the thoughts appearing up. I noticed in this one that the first minutes worth of thoughts were usually garbage. After that, my mind generated stuff that I thought was useful. Like remembering to plan that dental appointment…

This practice was followed by practicing to redirect your attention every few seconds on purpose. Which teaches you how to redirect your attention from your thoughts, into where you want to go.

Ofc, meditation is nice, but the goal is to put that stuff into practice. I found it helped getting myself to do what I want to do, but couldn’t get myself to. Like studying or cleaning.

My tip is, choose 1 low-level and practice that. I started in the morning for 5 to 10min, and tried to apply the lesson throughout the day to make it useful. I did that for 1 to 2 weeks before going to the next step of the meditation. That was hard enough! xD

Solid advice! Thanks

Yup. I found that “taking the mind out on walkies” offers space for the mental storm to calm down a bit. Doesn’t do shit for focus, but takes away stress.

That’s amazing!

Yeah. Same here. Even my test results showed signs of overcompensation. I got most stuff correct in time, but my impulsivity (and gaming addiction) shined through. It was stressful as hell and I tried my best. Then took the test again on meds and 1) it wasn’t stressful, I was zen! 2) I was far less impulsive. xD

Not it’s not. You are right. It takes a lot longer to learn those habits and apply it in a useful way. It’s taken me ~9 years and of taking it more seriously. I still f up from time to time. Just not nearly as much as when I started trying to get my shit together. (Even my test results showed overcompensation in my attention problem lol)

You still need to develop those skills on meds. Which takes practice. Meds make it easier to practice.

I think a lot of people on these communities are at a point of discovery and realization. That there is a big factor (ADHD) causing their struggles in life. That they are not “just lazy and undisciplined.” A phase that can look like self-victimization and excuses.

Thing that worked well for me btw, is the ADHD guide on HealthyGamerGG. The name sounds stupid, but it’s the online name of a psychiatrist with experience with ADHD patients, and he takes a hollistic approach. I usually despise every form of spirituality, but he managed to filter out the “woo woo” (as he calls it) and stick to the practical aspects of meditation and how the mind works. Helped me understand my issues and how to handle them better.

Lies! Deception! I’ve met a void too dumb to understand commands! Your experience is clearly false!

She got her head stuck in a can she fished from the trash. Lucky we found her on time. We made sure to weigh down the lid with a rock after that.

I don’t speak any Spanish, but am able to guess and discern Esperanto due to its simplicity. It’s a dope and easy language.