Seriously. I want make slime and make complex endless stories with action figures. Oh wait those are the taboo hobbies, shit, I mean I want to play Poppy Playtime

There are tutorials that have you build a game to learn the basics and syntax and stuff. Oh, right, if you actually do use GameMaker avoid that drag&drop layout at all costs lol it’s not “easier”

But if you have it all written out already, now you just need to read the manual on whatever development platform you chose and figure out how to make the computer do what you have written. Like, if you want the title screen to have scrolling clouds and a bouncing logo for example, you’ll need to find out how to change the logo sprite’s Y coordinate and the clouds’ X coordinate using the documentation.

Tldr do one of those “my first game” tutorials on whatever platform you chose to get the feel of it.

Code isn’t that hard to learn, it just looks intimidating trust me.

Gamemaker and unity are free. Anyone can make a game.

Just make it on your own.

Lists with sub-lists

I still will eat lots because I can.

Earn -$500 lol

I’d rather ride past grass.

I look at naked people but I don’t produce anything. I just appreciate the artistic nudity of my favorite characters.

I’d rather not.

Yes, addiction is not fun. Reddit is not fun and neither is using drugs.

[email protected] yeah they’re fun

I feel like I’ve done everything a phone can do at this point

But it’s a plant! It’s natural! Everything natural is harmless! Imagine regulating plants! /s

I miss when that shit was illegal. Transgender people who only want to live their lives need to be in hiding but drug addicts in denial can openly be intoxicated at work and in public, and be the worst emotional abusers possible when they’re sober.

My whole life. All the time that was taken from me, and all I can do now is run and never hide from that shit and people associated with that shit. It might end up taking my job or apartment because some random people assumed I can’t work and live on my own despite working and living on my own.

Nothing will lessen the pain as everyone believes I deserved to be abused and that I should just know my place in society as a thing everyone abuses and nothing else. I should just get over it and accept that I’m less than everyone else and that I’m not a human being.

The same people abusing me, locking me away from society, and raising me to be a burden they wish died already so they wouldn’t need to deal with me anymore would fight tooth and nail for me to not kill myself though. I’m loved somehow. But when I’m not trying to die, you want me to die. Which is it?

Actually nothing happened. I’m mourning nothing. I was a spoiled child who had everything and a perfect childhood with everything. Nothing ever happened to me.

Gym, amazon warehouse, commuting by bike/scooter

Honestly decide on a goal and work towards it.

Probably just video game soundtracks and some user generated content.

Honestly I don’t enjoy much anymore so I just shut my mind off and ride around if I’m not doordashing or working at amazon

The best weather is the one that’s outside. A blizzard doesn’t matter if we have bike lanes. The rain does not matter if we have bike lanes. If you hate your life then move somewhere with more bike lanes. The only reason to live is to ride a bike and you’re dying during every minute not spent cycling.

Why not…? I was abused by so many narcissists and internalized so much that I’m always going to be like them regardless of what I do. I think turning everything into hate at least prevents me from feeling like I matter or I’m anything remotely valuable.

Dragonfucker… 2!

Went to work.

Couldn’t eat because everything was closed.

Can’t cook while living with family.