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Cake day: August 15th, 2023

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  • I see now, I missed that qualifier.

    If anyone out there is considering heroin, I’d highly recommend giving it a pass. It makes you feel fearless (William Burroughs called it being the “de-anxietized man”), but it also removes all feelings of remorse and regret, until you inevitably become an insufferable asshole. The addiction creeps in slowly, so you don’t feel it for weeks or months, and then one day, you can’t wake up without it.

    If you think this story won’t be you, think again. I once thought the same. I’ve been clean now for 15 years, but it still lurks in my mind sometimes.


  • You sound like you’ve never experienced heroin withdrawal before. Sick is an understatement. It’s more like legs thrashing, everything hurts, you are simultaneously hungry and not hungry, puking, crying…every negative feeling wrapped into one, and the entire time you have the knowledge that one more fix would take it away instantly. That week feels like a year, and everything gets reduced to a second by second basis.

    I’ll take my “being bummed I don’t have weed” psychological addiction any day.