I really like these, for me at least, unknown working class heroes and their stories. They really put into focus what is needed now. Organization and action with solidarity

It is an Chinese llm with the same focus as chatgpt. The main threat is that it claims to be cheaper to create and run. Less hardware needed and so on. Edit: it is also mostly open source so that is also a factor

As others have said, it is normal for your age. My personal tip is to try to wait at least 24 hours before buying something or sending that email. If it still seems like a good idea it has at least matured over a nights sleep and some thought.