I am in a similar spot right now. Not diagnosed (yet), but I do suspect very strongly I have it.
DM me if you would like to talk about it.
However I believe it it best to get diagnosed, since I think this uknown state is the worst.
If the money is not issue there must exist even some online therapists willing to diagnose you. But I am not sure about that.
Not outside in a city with cameras. If tails on homemade/trusted hardware is not safe enough, woods are the only option.