I’m sorry to hear you’re at where you’re at right now. I sincerely hope venting and getting some feedback makes your tomorrow a little bit better.

I grew up with some of the same feelings you have. It took a lot of time and distance to stop inflicting the same mental abuse on myself that others had (and some days it’s still a work in progress). I hope you get there too, someday.

The kind of people who came to Lemmy when Reddit enshittified are also the kind of people who went to Linux when Windows enshittified. Tech savvy enough to figure it out and zealous enough to stick with it, even if the FOSS solution objectively isn’t as great. (I’m that kind of people, it’s me.)