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Cake day: June 26th, 2023

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  • When I was in high school I walked into the girls restroom. I was a total idiot. I was like, “oh wow, they took out the urinals and painted the walls. Gee, that was fast.”

    As I was pissing it occurred to me, “oh no. What if this is the girl’s room.”

    As I walked out a girl was walking in and called me a pervert.






  • As a child I loaded an air rifle with pixie stix and shot my shirtless friend in the chest with it.

    In my mind, it was going to be like some three stooges cloud of flour that would turn his face pink kind of like this. (Best I could find)

    What happened instead was his entire chest was pouring blood and filled with burning pixie stix powder. I’m so glad I didn’t shoot him in the face. See, I was aiming for my brother who was the same height as me at the time and my buddy happened to be the one who came through the door.

    He was a damn good friend too. The adults weren’t brought in on the matter. We cleaned the wounds with peroxide and waited years to tell anyone haha.

    God I miss being a kid. I miss my old friends.



  • I did some reading. It would be spot on if he wasn’t convinced that he was perfect and everyone else wasn’t.

    No one is smarter than him. No one does it better than him. No one could even come close to comprehending his work. When he dies he feels sorry for anyone who has to work behind him and it will take teams of people to understand the genius of his work. Anyone who has a slightly different worldview than him is “thinking wrong”.

    He isn’t obsessed with perfection. He is perfection. No lover could please a woman like him. No one is stronger or more capable. He has done the work of 500 men in one lifetime.

    He prides himself on being the best, but not because he has anything to prove to anyone. He knows he’s the best. No one is better.

    His father’s dying words were, “Please God. Let my son find some humility. Please. He’ll have no peace until he finds it.”

    His father was a great man. An activist. A man who actually worked to change the world.

    He wasn’t always that guy though. He had to learn some hard lessons to get there and his son suffered while he learned those lessons. He knew that. He took accountability for it.

    I don’t know. I wouldn’t have made it without him in this life, but it was always a transaction. He doesn’t know how to do anything without it being a transaction. I’ve been trying to show him that it isn’t always about that. Every job we do, he tells me to keep track of my hours so he can pay me. I don’t want him to pay me. I want him to see that life can be something we experience and enjoy without it being a transaction.

    I’m probably wasting my time, but I love my uncle irrationally and I don’t know why.

    My body aches right now as I type this from driving a pick into slate to find some wires for him. It’s probably stupid, but a year from now when I still haven’t asked for a dime, maybe he’ll think about it. Or maybe he is who he is and he’ll think I’m an idiot.


  • I would have been more than happy to drink tap water and have my kids drink tap water.

    We’ve had a couple lead warnings though and I don’t want to fuck with it. They’re going to have a hard enough time with the misfortune of getting my genes. I don’t want to make it even harder for them.



  • I have spent most of my life dealing with a successful sociopath. Thing is, at times it really looks like he means well.

    It’s a constant battle in my head. Is it just his belief system? Is it just that he views everyone else as incompetent?

    I constantly find myself making excuses for him because I love him. I get angry and I’m able to really look at everything sometimes, or he does something really shitty to someone else. Like recently, he wanted to buy tires for his son. Great, right? But he had to find a way to make it a tax write off or he didn’t want to do it. He got his daughter a car, but with the condition that her mother couldn’t drive it under any circumstances. And it had to be a flood damaged car. Good deals with the salvage titles and all.

    He finally caved and sent his son money when I guilt tripped him, but he was mad for weeks about it. He’s probably still fuming. Mom ended up buying his daughter a car she couldn’t afford on credit and he gave the one he bought her to his girlfriend.

    He ended up buying his son used tires because he couldn’t work it out to get the write off without sending a check and he didn’t trust him with it (with no reason to feel that way).

    He built a cabin with his step brother in the 80s. They both poured blood, sweat, and tears into it. He had the money so he technically owned it, but it was understood that it was theirs with no strings attached.

    When it was completed he informed him that he was welcome to use it any time he wanted, so long as his mother never stepped foot through the door. Naturally his step brother said “fuck that”, took the L and never went back.

    I don’t know I’m doing dealing with it. Emotions are weird.


  • You have to be willing to exploit your fellow humans to get where he is. Either you don’t have a soul to start with or it gets torn to bits every step you take up the ladder.

    I’ve known people like that. I’ve been very close to people like that. It’s crazy, everywhere they look they’re looking for some win/something they can take. They never feel guilty. Honestly, the only thing they feel is betrayal when someone won’t bend the knee.

    That’s my little observation.

    Sad thing is, they still have people who love them but they aren’t truly capable of reciprocating. Everything is transactional and they always expect it to be profitable for them. The only thing that truly hurts them is when it isn’t profitable. It sucks being caught in their orbit too. Believe me.



  • Buddy I tell ya hwhat. Yer gonna be so happy because we are gonna do bigly interesting things.

    We’re gonna build a big arena just for Trump rallies. We’re gonna find a princess to marry Prince Barron, who by the way is young enough that we’ll have the longest stable gubment in American history. King for 70 years bud.

    Joel Olsteen is gon’ build big ol churches in ever state. We ain’t worried about prayer in school no more. We’re bringing school to prayer. Christian academy gonna be the normal school. Ever kid in American is gonna learn about being good with Ace Virtueson, Racer and the gang. They’ll learn that fish are fish because god wanted it that way and how we ain’t monkeys. Real science will git done like how many babies can good girls have.

    I’m so tired.