AKA how are you surviving it?
Mom and her partner are going to a reunion with some neighbours, get drunk and whatever and invited me but i won’t go. I know how those parties are and I hate being surrounded by alcoholic ignorant people and people I don’t know… My little bro (16 yrs old) goes out with his friends. My other bro that is 5 years younger than me (he’s 29 years old) Will pass the NYE with her fiance and her family in their families restaurant.
So I’ll stay in my room alone again. There’s no reason to go outside. The stupid fireworks won’t let me sleep anyways so I’ll play Xbox and watch some p*rn maybe. I know it can be seen as pathetic for some, but that’s my reality and I can’t do anything about it.
You sound really young, so let me give you some advice. You’re life, is what you make of it. Hate your job? Start learning to find a better one you actually like. Don’t like the bmw, sell it and get a car you like. Don’t like where you live focus on figuring out where you would like to live and work towards that. You could also use some therapy to help overcome your depression you have.