I first tried to kill myself in 2000, and writing about it of course resulted in another fucking award from Columbia.

My drug dealer broke into my apartment, found my phone, called everyone he’d ever heard me talk about, and then finally 911. I’d been thorough.

At that point, it was merely personal problems; we now have systemic ones.

I’m still crashing with a friend but return to the marginally movable trash can tomorrow.

I don’t know what I’m looking for by posting. I just know “not this” is where I’m at in life, and one can only spend so much time with the crisis line.

  • Pete Hahnloser@beehaw.orgOPEnglish
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    7 hours ago

    Having the fortitude and resources to get to Atlanta to renew my Pass and then making it to Kloten is the issue.

    I have skills; they’re just no longer valued.

    • Radiant_sir_radiant@beehaw.orgEnglish
      2·
      54 minutes ago

      I have skills; they’re just no longer valued.

      They may be valued somewhere; and even if that place is too hard to find at the moment, you seem smart enough to adapt and enhance your skillset as needed easily enough.

      If the flight is the main issue, I might be able to help with that (and the first couple of days of accommodation), provided you’re moderately flexible concerning the date. Everything else you’d have to arrange yourself, but if a flight ticket (or the lack thereof) is all that’s missing, do get in touch!