Full disclosure: I had to quit my meds earlier this week because of side effects (tachycardia).
So I am raw dogging my emotions right now, and to put it simply: I am just so damned angry. I genuinely want to break everything around me; except… I can’t. I can’t do a goddamned thing because … responsibilities.
I feel so overwhelmed by everything, and I have absolutely no one to turn to; no one who will listen. I have no friends, and aside of my children, I have no family. My dog doesn’t even want to be around me when I’m sad or upset.
How the fuck do people do this?
I decided to focus my energy and anger on raking leaves; four hours and 663 gallons (17 bags at 39 gallons each) of leaves later, I was feeling better (mentally; physically I’m going to regret it tomorrow).