You know, my coworkers do care, and I care about them as well. I think you are trying way too hard to stay in this self deprecating state you are in. If someone tells you happy birthday why do you care if they truly mean it? They meant something or they wouldn’t have even said a word. Just like all the people who have replied here. If they/I truly didn’t give a single fuck we wouldn’t have even clicked the reply button. Maybe try working on yourself and things might turn around, unless you don’t really want that and are fine with the situation you are attempting to complain about.

I feel like people who join really early are basically saying “Tell me you have nothing to do without telling me you have nothing to do.”

I had two giant servers sitting under my desk when bitcoin started up. I was trying to decide whether to put them to work mining bitcoin or using them for seti at home. Well I decided to go with seti. And I am actually complacent with that decision, because had I got into bitcoin I know that I would have some sort of anxiety over when I sold, or what I paid for something like a pizza. I know those people who are searching trash dumps for their old hard drives are just in a weird hell that I am glad I never put myself in that situation.