I’m going to be 35 and nothing changes my life has been a boring slow downward spiral. Sometimes I welcome death to take me but unless it’s a heart attack I don’t see that happening anytime soon. And I don’t feel like ending myself.
Still sexless, loveless with literary no friends and with a temp job that I dislike. I just drift in this world, I guess I could be worse, living under a bridge, but I still live with my mother and uncle, sleeping in a minuscule room shared with my uncle (he’s another “loser” like me in his late 40s non married living with his sister, my mom). I’m sure y’all heard this before, life is unfair, and it’s true, and I’m sure some other people out there are doing worse than me and are better “fighters” in life. But I’m not them, I’ll never be them, it’s not in me being that type of person.
Btw I’m not saying this just to get a response from you and I don’t need a “happy birthday” reply… If anything that would piss me off more due being insincere, you are not my family and you don’t care about me in the slightest (and rightfully so). But I just needed to say this to ease my pain.
Now maybe you can understand why I welcome the reaper, maybe you can tell me if you’re in a similar situation.
Just think about it: if a random co worker or something finds out that it’s your birthday and tells you “happy birthday”… Do you really think he gives a single fuck about you? For real? Does he genuinely cares? Same scenario here, I’m a ghost, a nobody to y’all. So I’m sorry, I cannot believe you.
You know, my coworkers do care, and I care about them as well. I think you are trying way too hard to stay in this self deprecating state you are in. If someone tells you happy birthday why do you care if they truly mean it? They meant something or they wouldn’t have even said a word. Just like all the people who have replied here. If they/I truly didn’t give a single fuck we wouldn’t have even clicked the reply button. Maybe try working on yourself and things might turn around, unless you don’t really want that and are fine with the situation you are attempting to complain about.
People say it for obligation, courtesy not because they truly care.
Caring isn’t binary, it’s a spectrum. I appreciate anyone who takes time to wish me on my birthday, regardless of how much they care about other aspects of me.