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  • Man this hits home. I’m so sad that I feel like I get treated like a crazy person for actually talking intentionally I.e. for talking about things that are important to me and what I think is important to who I’m talking to, for choosing my words intentionally and not playing games and picking up or putting out coded implications in my speech, and not wasting time having lengthy conversations to nobodies benefits or worse, that are just causing harm. Setting boundaries has been an important part of surviving while staying as consistent with my values and beliefs as possible, but it gets so lonely and difficult and exhausting, I’m constantly on. If you look through my comment history you’ll see what I mean, I’m frequently leaving long replies requesting to connect with folks who seem to share interests or sometimes just I’m just making what I feel is an important point, and it seems like hardly anyone engages what I’m saying in good faith and actually hears me, and nobody at all actually reaches out


  • Holy fuck that’s grim. I didn’t pick up what you meant at first my bad but I get it now. You’re saying if this is their tactic for the birds, and “let 'er rip” is policy for covid for humans then it’s going to be somewhere between “many if not most folks have multiple nontraumatic brain injuries now and autoimmune conditions that are [as I understand it] equivalent to developing AIDS in much shorter time and more” and “we will forcibly cull the herd to protect the future of the project”.


  • I can’t read this because fuck nyt, but wtf @

    I didn’t like the rebuttals in my link above. One of them says that the best thing for you/chickens is “to have a central authority decide to cull you minimizing for a balance of cost and your pain, instead of giving you the chance/choice of either surviving, or far more likely, suffering before death.” I would choose the 2nd option, but can only do so under central authority that has already decided what it prefers.

    Like what? Who is saying this to the person that is “you” in this scenario? Wtf? Absolute fucking non starter. I’m not choosing shit, fuck that we’re not doing that.


  • We only didn’t know because this type of authoritarianism requires an ignorant, sedentary, and fearful populace and so we’re not taught the crucial skills it would take to resist as we waste away and treat each other and ourselves like shit, because what we are taught is a zero-sum, individualistic, hierarchical way of life that teaches us the system is perfect and we’re not doing it right if we don’t get the results we want, and fools us into perpetuating harm in a self sustaining, cyclical manner. It’s very sad but all the more reason to try something new. It seeps into everything, it’s quite literally a death cult.





  • YarHarSuperstar@lemmy.worldtoMemes@lemmy.mlTrickflation
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    19 days ago

    Yeah I definitely need to read this book. For me it’s lead to a lifelong substance abuse issue (one month clean from my current DOC (I’m a polysubstance user), cannabis still but that’s not a problem for me) in which I was self medicating my intense sensitivity to any and all stimuli including emotional (I’m extremely empathetic and have strong feelings at all times unless dulled by substances, yes that includes during sleep) as well as sensory (my dad noticed first when I was young, he said I was "more tactile " when I was in elementary and he was partially right and that how I thought of it until I learned more and developed a better understanding with better coping skills and habits), along with the way I think being pretty rigid in some ways, for example I became a militant atheist in elementary school; I later developed a more accurate understanding of my beliefs but as a child I strongly resisted attempts to proselytize to me and bring me to church and church classes or whatever it was and all kinds of shit that never made sense to me the way it was being explained by religious people who were not well informed but had strong feelings about the topic. I have rarely felt well understood even through years of various therapies and treatments with many providers for my many health issues, including the aforementioned substance abuse issue. This book sounds like it might help me understand myself at least. Thank you for sharing :)

    Btw I was very underweight for years, I wonder if that has anything to do with what you mentioned about burning calories thinking. I am literally constantly explaining in my head what I’m doing as if someone was watching me and asking what I’m doing. I’ve gotten really good at explaining myself and during my addiction that came in handy, but now I can use it for good, like having this positive interaction with you :)


  • YarHarSuperstar@lemmy.worldtoMemes@lemmy.mlTrickflation
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    Oh I don’t mean it that way, I have always felt like I’m “on” too much of the time and it wears me out, especially in the years since my “big T” trauma event happened. It’s at least partially hyper-vigilance, but I think it’s also just how I am. Thats what I meant by messed up, it kind of seems like I’m in the deliberative state more than I “should” be (or what’s average, whatever) and when the reflexive state happens it’s not always at a helpful time.





  • I wonder if there is a way to do this on a degoogled graphene OS installed pixel phone.

    BTW, I’m looking for a source of a cheap pixel 6 or newer phone for privacy purposes (to install graphene OS on), I’m a disabled activist on a fixed income so it’s hard to afford stuff like that most of the time but at the same time it’s becoming more and more important to take measures like that for privacy, if anyone is interested in a trade or otherwise has a good idea for how I can get one, please let me know. Located in Midwestern US




  • My opinion on this generally boils down to that the system has been set up to reward evil/antisocial behavior, and this part of the system is so entrenched and well established and organized that it has not been effectively and completely toppled or eradicated in so long, it has been able to consolidate power and resources to a point where very few extremely evil people are personally in charge of so much of what happens that it seeps into everything. Actually “seeps” is the wrong word, it’s injected into everything. It’s like has been said many times in recent memory, the cruelty is the point.

    For a simplified example, evil executives reward evil behavior by their managers, who in turn punish their employees, who lose control of so much of their lives to these companies and managers that they end up hurting their families and friends out of confusion and anger and other complex emotional reactions, and harm is perpetuated in every area of life.

    It’s self sustaining, and even worse it replicates itself. In some ways I think of these systems as viruses. Also as cults. We all buy in to some degree.