The challenge is that in reality you have to keep making the choice. Nothing changes with one grand proclamation. Maybe it starts there, but it means nothing without backing it up with hundreds of other choices.
I know one personal challenge I am working on is judging myself by my best day. Everyone has variance of capability day to day. Beating myself up because everyday isn’t my best day is silly.
It also makes sense if they are on calling the entire computer “the hard drive” like grandma and the fans kicked on.
I understand it is normal human behavior to focus on negative things and an evolved survival trait. But it is kind of sad that no answers have any positive thoughts about the future. So I will try one:
Computer and robotic technology will improve and get cheaper. It will become feasible for home bound people to be able to have some sort of participation in society through telepresence.
It’s because we are all tired and something usually hurts. The thing that hurts and the reason it hurts changes, but “something hurts” is near constant state of being.
My understanding is that depression and anxiety are not uncommon for people with untreated ADHD. So it might be that your struggles with ADHD are causing depression.
Therapy is probably a good idea regardless. If you spent your life “in the wrong body”, I would imagine it would still leave you with thousands of small mental wounds that add up. Granted, finding the right therapist can be an ordeal.
More information if your interested: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLyqKj7LwU2RulAjHczohbx5OyJQ8TaFM0
Also establishes expectations. Every on the highway knows what the expected speed is. Going 30 in a 65 is way more dangerous than doing 75 when conditions allow.
But you don’t understand. This is the Internet. You are either a saint or the anti-christ. There is nothing In-between and nuance is propaganda. And if you don’t agree with my currently held emotionally charged position, you are what’s wrong with (fill in the blank).
I think a group of people found a dead horse they like beating. They enjoy it, so they will keep going.
I’m not on a stimulant beside caffeine. But I have noticed a similar issue. 3 things I do to help:
I would stay away from kubernets/k3/k8s. Unless you want to learn it for work purposes, it’s so overkill you can spend a month before you get things running. I know from experience. My current setup gives you options and has been reliable for me.
NAS Box: Truenas Scale - You can have UnRaid fill this role.
Services Hosting: Proxmox - I can spin up any VMs I need and lots of info online to do things like hardware passthrough to VMs.
Containers: Debian VM - Debian makes a great server environment as it’s stable and well supported. I just make this VM a docker swarm host. I managed things with Portainer for a web interface.
I keep data on the NAS and have containers access it over the network. Usually a NFS share.
Gotta meet the customer where they are, not where you would like them to be. Most people don’t want to learn a new thing.
A Mary Sue is about unearned skill. A person who is just magically good at everything. People don’t like it because in the real world you generally have to work hard, struggle, and sacrifice to achieve significant things. Same reason most people don’t like trust fund babies. They didn’t earn it.