Full disclosure: I had to quit my meds earlier this week because of side effects (tachycardia).
So I am raw dogging my emotions right now, and to put it simply: I am just so damned angry. I genuinely want to break everything around me; except… I can’t. I can’t do a goddamned thing because … responsibilities.
I feel so overwhelmed by everything, and I have absolutely no one to turn to; no one who will listen. I have no friends, and aside of my children, I have no family. My dog doesn’t even want to be around me when I’m sad or upset.
How the fuck do people do this?
Not sure what is pissing you off. If it’s like most people right now it would be best to cold turkey social media and news. I was getting incredibly depressed by it so I quit it and I just stick my head in like once every couple of weeks, like today.
Exercise. Getting out of the house. Get reconnected and grounded. Get back to living in the moment. Remember to be grateful everyday for something. I know it sounds stupid when everything is burning down but just do it and see the results.
Check out self help books at the library for your conditions. I know when I couldn’t afford therapy or went a long way to getting mentally well is life time journey for many if not most.
And cold turkey any kind of meds for mental disorders is a scary thing. You’re an adult, you made that choice. You can always talk to your doctor about alternatives but I imagine you’re going cold turkey for reasons. Just be kind to yourself while you’re going through this transition. Know that this isn’t how you or things will always be. Be patient with yourself and take it one day at a time. Things will get better. You won’t always be angry at things. Question why you’re getting angry at things and ask yourself things like should you change your expectations.
I decided to focus my energy and anger on raking leaves; four hours and 663 gallons (17 bags at 39 gallons each) of leaves later, I was feeling better (mentally; physically I’m going to regret it tomorrow).